These are the crushes meant to crush you.

Summer 2008

"My heart falls when I see you."

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The moment:

Yellow turns this courage badge
Into a valentinal trash.

These are the crushes meant to crush you.
The contact was dry,

But exasperating like a teething smile.

Pulse by pulse,
I honor wet weather to myself into her hands,

And for an angel even she knew it well
When my drool dropped past her lips.

A dead man floating
Is one in a forgetful moment.

She saw it haunted in my eyes
When finally they opened,

Coughing up blood like throat.
No, lover let go of my neck.

We knew together that every crack in the wall
Is a step towards release of the lascivious waters

I no longer wade through.

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The fall:

Your breaking all hearts but your own
You suffocate me I cannot lie
I cannot hide that my heart falls when i see you
Something in me turns to murder
Your faking I start to see
My heart falls when I see you
Open your eyes and see right through
After all this time
Now run with one less by your side
I believe in promises
Do you believe in trust
Run with one less by your side
You'll burn this bridge ( I hope you die )
Every time (Living that lie )
I thought you meant the words you said
I thought you cared for me
Why can't you see
How could it have been so easy to turn your back
And fuck all your friends
Your tears are not going to wash this one away
The whispering of lies
But will you still reflect on what we had
And all of the potential

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The fallout:




When I see me in your eyes
I just want to go blind
When I build coffin worlds with words
I just want a place to hide
When old ghosts meet new regrets
My daylight fades to gray
When our days bring guilt and shame
My heart turns black
These are my tombs
Painted black and blue
These are my tombs painted
Just for you
Goodnight
Goodnight dear
Goodbye
Black rose
Be my light
In the darkness of nights
Be my heart

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